Soulcadia

Hi, and goodbye.

2009-11-06T09:35:00.000-08:00

I have a new blog, only because of my foreign exchange deal, super exciting! I am trying to fund raise money, any help, any help at all would be greatly appreciated. There will soon be a button on my new blog that will allow people to donate straight to my fund! http://acadiasafsblog.blogspot.com/

THANKS

Oh lawdy

2009-10-14T18:17:00.001-07:00

Into this wild abyss,

The womb of nature and perhaps her grave,

Of neither sea, nor shore, nor air, nor fire,

But all these in their pregnant causes mixed

Confusedly, and which thus must ever fight,

Unless the almighty maker them ordain

His dark materials to create more worlds,

Into this wild abyss the wary fiend

Stood on the brink of hell and looked a while,

Pondering his voyage…

-John Milton, Paradise Lost, Book II

The Amber Spyglass

2009-10-12T19:54:00.000-07:00

"Being in love was like China: you knew it was there, and no doubt it was very interesting, and some people went there, but I never would. I'd spend all my life without ever going to China, but it wouldn't matter, because there was all the rest of the world to visit."

I really like this book.

Adv. Comp Discussion today had everyone upset...

2009-10-06T18:09:00.000-07:00

This was my view.

See

The people in the street

Crying for release

Take a little time?

They’re begging for a dime

See good in them.

The mothers who are too young

Sure, I bet they’ve had their fun

Now crippled with this baby

Asking anyone to ‘save me?’

See good in them.

The snobby jerks saying ‘get off your ass!’

Counting their money, as they walk on past

Blessed life from the start

Corruption in their heart

See good in them.

Through your tears and smiles

Those inches, feet, and miles

Dragging along

Singing your life’s song

Though it’s hard to do

See good in you.

Fame 2010? 1980?

2009-09-16T20:06:00.000-07:00

CAN NOT WAIT FOR FAME!

She inspires me.

2009-09-03T16:23:00.000-07:00

Today I

2009-07-12T20:57:00.000-07:00

Had breakfast with my grandparents and just-invited-guest we met on the street; former tugboat operator named Hill. I got home and rode my bike into town, went to the grocery store and bought a disposable camera. Took pictures of everything i liked, everything that was beautiful or funny. I played skip-bo at the old folks home, got my butt whooped. Checked in at work, rode home. Good movie, still hungry but overall good first day home.

MOVIE

2009-07-12T20:52:00.000-07:00

I really like this movie. It's definitely one where you wish you could go in and just make people happy. Super good though:) Thanks for recommending it..

The last two weeks of school..

2009-05-27T09:36:00.000-07:00

... I do nothing but artwork...

My video editing skills are unmatched ...

2009-05-17T16:08:00.000-07:00

The things that keep me laughing..

2009-05-14T13:05:00.000-07:00

CAC Dance Performance

2009-05-04T21:09:00.000-07:00

The CAC Dance Group is having a show May 15,16,17!

We would love for you to come and see our hard work! It's at the high school auditorium 5 dollars admission.

Times:

Friday, little kids show @ 7:00PM

Saturday, big kids show @ 7:00PM

Sunday, everyone show @ 1:00PM

Not Lost, Just Wandering

2009-05-04T20:57:00.000-07:00

Sometimes during the day, during lunch or when I'm walking in the hallways i just get this strange kind of feeling. Especially when i listen to music, but it's this kind of weightless "it's alright" feeling. A few months ago someone i know told me blogging was dumb, so was preforming, and/or singing. I asked him why and he told me because when it's all over, no one cares. I hope that not everyone thinks that way, because how sad would it be if no one cared about anything. That's why i like that weightless feeling, it's like even if i was asleep my body would care, it would still keep me breathing and flowing and living and dreaming. When i go to school everyday and see the same ambition-less people everyday (except a few) it's hard to believe that there is still some magic left in the world. I hope there is though because i plan on finding it.

Peace, Acadia

Wise Up

2009-05-03T20:00:00.000-07:00

This weekend i spent kind of alone. My dad and stepmom were both gone and i hung out at home,stayed at a friends house i hadn't hung out with for while, i went to dance with my friend ally who i hadn't hung out with for a while either. Sometimes i get a little intreverted. I want to just hang out alone. I wish i could've had a bit more time to myself... i'll just try to make some more time i guess.

House Photography

2009-05-03T18:27:00.000-07:00

I have this new thing for silhouettes and black & white photography...

Bat for Lashes

2009-04-19T13:46:00.000-07:00

Last week: It was my first week back. Back at school, back with friends, back with my dad and step mom, back in Montana. It was nice after my New Orleans visit to know there are still mountains. My schools concert choir went to Music Festival down in Columbia Falls and we got an 'excellent' or a 2. 1 is the highest you can get, so i am pretty proud of us.

Yesterday: Rinnah and I and some other high schoolers from band or choir went to Music Festival again except this time for our solo pieces. The adjudicator we had was in love with classical music, Rinnah, Danielle and I all having Broadway pieces were scared, but it totally took us by surprise when the adjudicator told us that Broadway pieces weren't allowed, at least where she came from in Idaho. We were so upset, and when i finished my piece, I cried.

Today: I applied for a job at Jaxs Cafe, i really need to start saving money for my AFS trip. I had a malt with my dad, it was nice, now I am going to clean/unpack/wash/sweeten my room.

New Orleans Photography

2009-04-06T22:05:00.001-07:00

My Great Grandma

2009-03-15T15:03:00.000-07:00

I took this portrait of her yesterday. She's still got it :)

Old New Camera

2009-03-15T14:44:00.000-07:00

I've been really busy, with the play and school and everything. I haven't been writing or drawing or anything for a while either. So I'm back to blogging, I've been sick for a while too, so this weekend i stayed home and hung out with my great-grandma and my new/old camera and took pictures. My fish died. It's sad, but it's not the first time I've killed a fish, so I'm alright. It just was pretty sad though, I was changing it's water and i poured it into it's new clean bowl and it started twitching and died right in front of me. It might have been the water temperature or what i used to clean the bowl. But what does that say about me? I'm 16 and i can't even take care of a beta fish. Im surprised i can take care of myself. I was super sick for about a week, I lost my voice the day before our choir concert, my dad came and watched me mouth the words to all our songs. I have a new computer on the way it's a 12 Dell and it has a little design on the front. I'm very excited for it to get here. Prom is this weekend, and I'm going with my friend Rinnah and my boyfriend Ian, i can't wait. I love dances, they're always really fun. Well, not always, but usually even if the music sucks and no one is dancing you can work around that. I watched a big marathon of Firefly this weekend, a little tv series that was made from a movie or was made into a movie, i can't remember which. I've gotten Rinnah terribly sick and i hope she feels better by this weekend because i can not imagone prom being fun while she feel horrible. Rinnah and I re-did my room a while back and hung up curtains everywhere, and moved my bed around. I really like it but something still doesn't feel right. I'll work on it. i can't promise i'll blog more but I'll do what I can to make it interesting.

Talkin Ship About A Pretty Sunset

2009-02-10T21:15:00.000-08:00

MAN, life has been weird for me lately. Up ,and Down, the best days, and the worst days. Its all over the place.
I've had play rehearsal like mad and homework and dance. All i want to do is climb a mountain and meditate for days and just put myself back together, you know?

Well, at this point I'm more over it then i was before. So all is well, all good. There is no certain thing, its just life, probably the full moon or something.

But what i really want to talk about is Speech class, We have to give an informative speech on ANYTHING. Like the topic is wide open. So i decided i would do my speech on Mahatma Gandhi I wonder how my class will take it. I'm doing it more on his principles of non-violence, truth, and simplicity... but who knows with this class? So tomorrow 2nd period ill be doing my speech about Gandhi and praying to Gandhi it works out. Im not trying to convince anyone of anything because i hate that, i am just talking about Gandhi's principles. Well, wish me luck?

ps. So for the whole up and down, man, life is weird thing; i'll just notice the small things more and keep to myself more, that normally solves it.

Paradise

2009-01-31T12:49:00.000-08:00

Paradise

"Oceans drift and
Seas part
You'll find paradise
In every broken Heart"

Music = There's Sun on Saturday

2009-01-31T09:59:00.000-08:00

Who couldn't love Calvin and Hobbes?

2009-01-31T09:15:00.000-08:00

Mom: Either he's playing classical music at 78 RPM, or I'm still dreaming.
Dad: First thing tomorrow morning. I'm calling the orphanage.

Today I'm finishing up this cake i started yesterday (I'm supposed to be doing that RIGHT NOW actually but, its the weekend ). I made a speech yesterday for class, 10 Things about me, that was the subject we had to talk about. We'll it's nice, because me is the thing i know the most about, but i am hoping for better topics later on. I talked the longest in the class, 4:20, i wish i wouldn't have, i guess it just shows me how long i talk normally when i think I've only been talking for a couple of seconds. I got mixed reactions. Oh well, it's just speech class.

Ashes to Ashes

2009-01-25T15:02:00.000-08:00

Dust to Dust

if i could be dust
id be so happy
the wind would be the only thing id trust

it would sweep me away
like whispers from words
said under breaths on a good day

id love the feeling of sun and wind
embracing my face
as it brings me around another bend

let me be dust
and throw me to the sky
for freedom is like unrequited lust
familiar and foreign to my eyes

Calendar Jan 18'th

2009-01-18T21:40:00.000-08:00

I spent the whole weekend with Rinnah, i had SO much fun. I'm really glad to have met her.
PS. Normally i would write more, but i have finals this week,home work, play rehearsal, dance rehearsal, and i was gone all weekend basically so... BED FOR ME. I promise I'll write when i get a moment.

Calendar Jan 15'th

2009-01-15T20:51:00.000-08:00

Youth alive was fun today. I don't really go for the youth group, but its fun to talk seriously with other kids for real.

"im gonna get grape or cherry, they're both favorites"

Little Things

2009-01-14T19:27:00.000-08:00

It's the little things that get you right?
So just on Tuesday night i decided that i was tired of not being who i want to be. Most people say that they are "themselves" when really they just want to be accepted. So when they're sad, they act happy. When they feel like dressing crazy, they wear jeans. Its this cycle ,you can just get sucked into it if you dont try to keep out. I have made a promise to myself to be completely myself. I dont know for how long, but im shooting for forever. Today i wore a long skirt, sure i got some funny looks and stuff., but more compliments than funny looks. I also decided right in the middle of lunch while everyone was there to play hacky-sack with some kids i know. I had so much fun. So who knows what ill do tomorrow.
Things I did:
I smiled at people who i normally dont especially like.
I gave out compliments like free candy.
I didnt bother to wonder what other people thought as much. ( "as much" because im still training myself to be... myself)
I gave my all to school work. ( even though i was called 3 different variations of the word dork through the whole day)
I ate dates and didnt care what other people said about them. Because they taste so darn good.

I had a great day. im planning on more.
The play so far is great i am so happy i get to watch it from such a close perspective.

ps. MOOG

Calendar Jan 14'th

2009-01-14T19:23:00.000-08:00

I wore a floor length yellow skirt today and played hacky-sack with a bunch of people who are really cool. I kinda suck at it, but I'll get better.

Calendar Jan 13'th

2009-01-13T18:33:00.000-08:00

Today i acted mature when i could have acted like a 5 year old (which would have been WAY more FUN). But in the long run im proud of myself. Not the best day, but the best way to go about it, you know?

Stage Manager and Light Guy

2009-01-13T18:05:00.000-08:00

My boyfriend and i just broke up this past weekend (we had been dating for about 4 months). No big deal, but he is running the lights in Time Out for Ginger. If we have to spend so much time together i figured we should try to just skip that whole "I refuse to even acknowledge that you exists phase". So today after lunch i caught him for a second and said even though we are broken up i hope we are cool and can work on the play together, no big deal. He was cool with it and in general i feel a WHOLE bunch better about it all. But still im not saying its not difficult, even only dating for just a while i still get attached very easily. Mt goal is though to stay completely drama-free and happy. It wont be that hard and now for the rest of my time at this high school ill be known as someone who can take break-ups easily and not hold hard feelings. Sorry if this is boring, but hey? Your reading it! So for now i will be thankful for the AMAZING friends i have who are and were such a great help with all this stuff. Its amazing how mature some people can be, even in high school, if you give them the chance.

San Marcos, California

2009-01-13T18:00:00.000-08:00

Hey that's cool that someone looked at my blog from San Marcos because i was born in San Diego which is very close to San Marcos. I love the San Diego Zoo i remember all the koalas from when i was younger. We moved when i was about 5 but i still have memories of Muscle Beach.

ps. Hello to Lynnwood, Washington and Walnut, California!
pps. Just so you know, if you dont from reading other earlier entries. When i see on my little widget down there that someone from a new place is visiting my blog. I'll usually write something about them.

NEWS UPDATE

2009-01-13T17:53:00.000-08:00

The Honorable Role of Stage Manager
I am stage manager for Time out for Ginger, which is fine. All the cast has been chosen very well, and im happy to be managing them :)

Rinnah-Jeannie
Levi-Principal
Ethan- Banker
Casey-Anges
Matteus- Tommy
Sam-Howard
Danielle- Ginger
Joan-Heather
Eddie-Doug

Lights-Casey
Sound-Tia
Props-Aly

Asst. Director- Bailey

Time Out for Ginger

2009-01-12T19:37:00.000-08:00

Today i tried out for our school play, Time Out for Ginger. I've always really really had a passion for acting and im excited even if i don't make it that i'm at least guaranteed a part in helping out the play! I tried out for the role of Joan, one of Gingers sisters.

Calendar Jan 12'th

2009-01-12T19:34:00.000-08:00

Today Rinnah and i became very close, we danced and sang on the streets. I love that i can have a great friend like that.

How Cool?

2009-01-12T19:25:00.000-08:00

Alright, so I think since im getting these cool new visitors. Like my Rotherham buddies!! (whoever they are) I will post a picture of a sight i want to see from there or a person i want to be from there. Anything!
IT'S SUPER COOL Ljubljana

picture: The Art Nouveau Urbanc House

How neat i really like their entryway/door its beautiful.

Calendar Jan 11'th

2009-01-11T17:27:00.000-08:00

So today has not been the best but, i got my sketchbook back and I'm planning on using the heck out of it.

Sometimes I Know Exactly What's Going On

2009-01-11T17:20:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i really do know exactly what's going on, and i just let myself pretend that i don't. Why?

There could be thousands of reasons from protecting the people i love, or knowing that if i knew i might want to run away. So right now i know what's going on. I am having another new stage/step in my life. I just need to move on with everything. I dont ever really have preparation for these new stages so whenever i find out i need to move quickly and get my stuff in order before it gets to lost and confused to deal.
blech :( could be better
ps. The picture is of my feet, i am 16 and have a dress-up-box. Weird?

Poem

2009-01-10T22:51:00.000-08:00

(I wrote this a few days ago... its okay... it's mostly just thoughts... hope you like it)

Someone Else’s Body

Looking in the mirror
Is like seeing a strange painting
In some wacky art museum
Filled with works from Picasso and Dali
It slightly resembles my face
With smaller eyes
And pin straight hair
And a robot attacking her mouth
All the sun’s love sucked from the once-there-freckles

Looking down at my body
So close to his
So unfamiliarly familiar
Makes me wonder
If that really even my waist his hands are on
If that’s my hair he’s playing with
And I wonder if ill ever have the guts to tell him
To just kiss me
Like he means it
Like I know he does
Instead of feeling like the base tonight is another game of P.E.

Looking at my feet
Buried in the swallowing snow
That is vicious in more ways than one
Kidnapping trees in its blinding beauty
And stealing the sun from my paler than white skin
It’s hard to tell those are even my feet inside those too big shoes
Why am I standing in the snow?
And not next to Grace
Saying goodbye as if we will be the same people tomorrow

Looking at my hands
Moving across the keyboard
With musical ease that comes to only the hand-eye coordinated
I wonder if they’re even mine
It seems impossible that those cold-worn-red hands belong to me
Because from what I remember those long fingers never played a note
Never in her life

Looking in the mirror-wall at dance
I wonder why my body is moving like this
Strange new nameless movements and combinations
And why when I start a piece
All my feeling drains
At the drop of a hat
I wonder why my body betrays me
When what I need right now is simply
Dance-acceptance

Looking at my fingers typing
Every key I press is spelling out my thoughts
Worn out keyboard
Worn out hands
Too many times covering never-fallen tears
Not enough times covering a laughing scream
My fingers can change that though
They are pressing the keys and can spell whatever future they want
So now when I’m

Looking in the mirror I’ll see
Vibrant life streaming from eyes that are
Determined to have smile-wrinkles by the time I’m twenty
Shining light coming from the soon-to-be happy teeth and
Gold-blonde hair tumbled-dried and
Worn with streaks of the ever-smiling sun
Mouth open in laughter spilling out like marbles on concrete:
Bright enough for all to hear and familiar enough to love

Looking down at my body I’ll see
His hand on my knee
And face smiling brighter than any summer sun the winter steals
Feeling heat from heart to toes
Hands honestly entwined
And mind on vacation because
What better prescription for homesick-ness could there be
Than an amazing boy and the back row in the movies

Looking at my feet I’ll see
Feet on soil not shoes
Connected to the ground
Knowing that it’s not just your rubber soul that connects you to the earth
And that keeps you from slipping down hills
My too big shoes will be just right because
I will have room to GROW

Looking at my hands
Worn with love like a spring-happy gardener
Move across the keyboard in random spurts of melodic harmony
Then crash and burn when I get frustrated and stomp on the keys
I’ll laugh because it’s amazing that these hands can play a single note
And why not enjoy instead of scrutinize

Looking in the mirror-wall at dance
Ill see a body that can move freely within the choreography of another
When that body moves it seems as if it’s a whole other dance every time
Because every time she will feel
Interpret
Move
Inspire
Reach out
Dance another way

Looking at my life I see

GREAT FRIENDS
Making a salt circle and sitting there all night with you swearing that we would be best friends forever, now that we got the lying through our teeth out of the way

Saving you from that woman who deserves no place after death and never being so happy to see a friend being taken away by a policeman

Laying on your bed upside down talking of near-love experiences, thinking that this friendship with you… wasn’t such a bad idea and crying in the hallway when “nothing” was wrong because you knew that this “nothing” meant “nothing” at all to me

Dancing with you and wondering why in the world am I dancing like this with some guy I don’t even know, and finding out later that I probably wouldn’t and couldn’t have stopped even if I had tried…

Talking with you in your car, never even knowing before that your life was as troubled as it is… and deciding right on that moment that I would never treat you any different because of it

Singing the new kid blues in P.E. and being more honest with you than I would if you didn’t have that smile that says; “I’m here for you tell me all your problems”

Honestly wondering for hours on how someone like you could be so themselves and so honest with everyone and still hold some sense of uncharted mystery like the other half of the treasure map that you’ll never find…

HARD TIMES

Running from the thing I love most. Because who in the world would ever want to leave their mother?

You. You stole my heart. My head. My world. You stole everything.
You. You made my best-memories. My best laughs. My best kisses. My best everything.
You. You are an old book. Torn pages from constant love. In a used book store with a note to the new owner on the back of the cover. Take care of this one, it’s beautiful.

GOOD TIMES

Jazz fest. Starlit truck beds. Never-ending beach trips and two birthdays. That were packed with more fun than all our parents high school years combined.

Screaming our heads off in the freezing cold. Losing my voice. Running to the middle of the field like a doofus. Dancing. Quarters. Homecoming face paint. Pop Lock and Drop It. Casey, Taniesha, Shelby, Anastasia. Tony… kind of. Birthday party. Screaming cats in the middle of the night. Holes in the universe. Moss covered rocks that were destroyed by the time we left.

1 week. 2 shows. 7 days of the week. 1 Leonard the Leopard. 1 Wilson the goat. 1Robinson Crusoe. 15 thousand cheesy songs. 20 color-changing chameleons. 1 pizza for the days of the week (Robinson and Wilson too). 1 SUPER COOL DIRECTOR. 1 really mean one who had some definite issues. 1 night performance. 3 times one of the days of the week missed her cue. 1 pirate costume. 1 jungle/safari costume. 1 UGLY nineties TV-show turtleneck.1 back stage visit. 1 million pictures of us acting really dumb. 1 glowing uterus.

Something that is so neat!

2009-01-10T22:32:00.000-08:00

Someone from Rotherham in Europe looked at my blog. It was probably an accident but it is amazingly cool to me to know that anyone ANYWHERE could read about what I'm doing. Even though i bet they didn't find many new concepts or groundbreaking news so... Sorry Rotherham...

Calendar Jan 10'th

2009-01-10T22:27:00.000-08:00

from 2:30 pm to 9:55 pm mountain time a handful of my friends reminded me what it's like to have people who honestly care about you
thanks tony, i love you and we will be great friends for a long time.

The internet was DOWN

2009-01-10T22:25:00.000-08:00

sorry! the internet was down for a few days because of an avalanche somewhere in Polson or something... a lot of people freaked out over it. It was ridiculous!

Im Sick and Determined to Travel.

2009-01-04T16:04:00.000-08:00

I'm totally sick and it all happened at once. Now I'm drinking tea like 24/7 and I've been making a power point to show my parents all the different programs I'm researching. So far I've come up with AFS and Where There Be Dragons and a couple others i don't like as much; CIEE and Rustic Pathways. I don't like those because they look like its not for as long and its focused more towards a certain curriculum. I think it would be fun to be just suddenly immersed in a countries culture. It might cost some serious money though, like 5 thousand to 13 thousand or more. It all depends which program i choose in the end and how long I'm staying and where I'm going. I'm planning on doing a Gap Year Program, which just mean ill be going between high school and college. :) Wish me Luck!

ps. The picture is from this summer, we went floating down one of those Forks by Polson i think. It was super fun, Emily went along too, we had a blast! Up until the end when we couldn't find the take out and Emily had to paddle up river like a mile.
pps. How do you like those LINKS dad?
ppps. oh yeah dad, you should def check that last link out.

Calendar Jan 4'th

2009-01-04T15:58:00.000-08:00

Last night i watched Elf with Brinkley/Garrett and we watched the infini-film version. Here's a tip...never watch infini-film it's the most boring thing i've ever seen. Its the same movie, just with little extra information about the poor people who had to work behind the scenes, the extra information totally ruins the movie.

Calendar Jan 3'rd

2009-01-03T17:05:00.000-08:00

Today my parents and i (Reva and Dad), played hearts after lunch. I'm losing... but it's still really fun to have a game we can all play.

Casio SA75 Mini-Size Keyboard

2009-01-03T16:33:00.000-08:00

YES!

My new keyboard i got for Christmas has been like my best friend for the past few days. At first it was great and everything but then i went sledding and kind of forgot about it, i brought it home a few days later and then watched August Rush(really nice movie) and got super inspired! I even found a song from August Rush called, Something Inside that i love to play along with. I found a few places where i have my own little solo in the song. I really like the song itself, i could listen to it a million times.

A Couple Songs that I've Been Listening to Lately (either found or re-discovered)
-Just Dance:Lady Gaga
-I Like What You Say: Nada Surf
-Australia: The Shins
-Let Me See Your Hips Swing: Savage ( okay I know this song is ghetto beyond reason and should be bleeped out every other second, but its kind of primal... :) i just like it)
-Victor's Piano Solo: Corpse Bride Soundtrack
-Annie: Vanessa Carlton
-We Get On, Skeleton Song, and Birds: Kate Nash
-7th Symphony: Beethoven
-Lay All Your Love On Me and Super Trouper: Mamma Mia Soundtrack
-The Drug's Don't Work and She's Only Happy in the Sun: Ben Harper
-Don't Wait: Dashboard Confessional(s)
-Sex On Fire:Kings of Leon
-Runaway Love: Ludacris ft. Mary J. Blidge
-No Hardcore Dancing in the Living Room: Chiodos
-Say it to Me Now and Leave: Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova: Once Soundtrack
-Time to Pretend: MGMT
-Sleeping In: The Postal Service
All these songs are really nice, and i like to listen to them...

ps. I made a header for my blog today, and changed the colors and stuff. I figure if I'm going to blog this much i might as well make it nice.

Carpe Diem

2009-01-02T22:33:00.000-08:00

My best friend Grace, even though she lives very far away from me now reminded me of a saying that i kept for the two years we spent together when i lived there. It's also in one of my favorite movies, with my favorite guy actor (Dead Poet's Society/Robin Williams). So I've decided its my quote for this new year.

Ive Got Answer-less Questions.

2009-01-02T21:56:00.000-08:00

I always have questions going through my head. I've just grown out of the "asking them every 5 minutes phase", like little kids do. The questions are still there though bouncing around in my head. There's the BIG questions like; "What happens when we die". There's the small questions like; "I wonder what my special brand of fingerprint swirly is classified as". Then there are the in-between questions that are not big enough to just say "that's impossible to figure out unless i meditate for 3/4 of my life and become a re-incarnate of some very enlightened person", and not small enough to say "I'll just google/wiki it". I hate those questions. They sit there in my head for days and days. Bothering me until i have to force them out of my head with a definite decision to not worry about it, and to think of something else.
List of Questions off the Top of my Head
-Why do American schools teach just American History, and if they do have a World History class, they are often not very complete? medium to small
- Are the words blog, frendel, shawty, and tight (as in cool) in the dictionary? small
- Why is it not "okay"(socially acceptable) for people to just burst out into song/dance/music/ect. whenever they feel like it? Actually why is it not socially acceptable for people to be joyous for no reason whatsoever? medium
- Why do we feel our negative emotions (like jealousy, greed, anger, depression) so much stronger than the positive ones? Can we change that? big

ps. The picture is of some snow on that's been hanging off our roof for days, small question: How come it doesn't come sliding off, even when you hit it?

Calendar Jan 2'nd

2009-01-02T21:52:00.000-08:00

My good luck necklace (4 leaf clover) Brinkley gave me for Christmas proved it's worth at the movies today.

Sometimes I Get On This Rampage.

2009-01-01T20:28:00.000-08:00

I honestly do. I get on a rampage about life or dance or capitalization. Or anything really. Like you know sometimes, maybe it only happens when your a kid ( but lately I've been finding even though adults are called "grown-ups" most of them still have a lot of "growing up" to do), but those moments where your standing somewhere; Lets say on the edge of where you normally walk to, when you take your walks normally ( if your the kind of person who takes walks normally, which i am, so just roll with me here), and then it suddenly hits you...you could just keep walking. I mean, whats stopping you? Absolutely nothing. Nothing at all. I mean besides little things like, who will take care of the chickens. But in reality you could, physically just keep walking. I mean who said your walks end there. You could run away, like... Huck Fin, like... The Boxcar Kids. Who knows? So what do you do?
Well you think about for a few seconds... and a few more... and then realize nah, Ive got too much stuff going on. Then you walk back home and don't give it another thought. Well recently, maybe its just because im sooo painfully close to graduating (2010), i haven't been just forgetting about it. I still wonder if i wouldve kept walking, where would i be walking now? So i haven't just kept on walking yet. But there has to be someone who has. One day i want to meet that someone(s).

ps. The picture is at my friend Tia's house. I was waiting for her to put her boots on so we could go play in the snow and i started wondering if i just started walking. Where would i go or end up...

Calendar Jan 1'st

2009-01-01T20:20:00.000-08:00

Today I've made a lot of improvement on my piano (keyboard) i got for Christmas.

quotes and headings and such silly nonsense

2009-01-01T20:15:00.000-08:00

BOOKS
The Catcher in the Rye
"What I was really hanging around for, I was trying to feel some kind of a good-by. I mean I've left schools and places I didn't even know I was leaving them. I hate that. I don't care if it's a sad good-by or a bad good-by, but when I leave a place I like to know I'm leaving it. If you don't, you feel even worse."-Holden Caulfield

StarGirl
"I'm erased. I'm gone. I'm nothing. And then the world is free to flow into me like water into an empty bowl…. And… I see. I hear. But not with eyes and ears. I'm not outside my world anymore, and I'm not really inside it either. The thing is, there's no difference between me and the universe. The boundary is gone. I am it and it is me. I am a stone, a cactus thorn. I am rain. I like that most of all, being rain."-Stargirl


FRIENDS
Grace DiGeorge
Good friends must not always be together; It is the feeling of oneness when distant
That proves a lasting friendship.

How do you know you've found your best friend?  When you are ready to talk
to them about anything, even though they know everything about you already.

Rinnah Henderson
Sometimes creativity is a compulsion, not an ambition.

Tia Luciano
"A person is only complete when she has a true
friend to understand her, to share all her passions and sorrows with,
and to stand by her throughout her life." - Oscar Wilde

Casey Libey
Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden
when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved
brings a warmth and a richness to life that nothing else can bring.


FAMILY
Garret King
We are all inventors, each sailing out on a voyage of discovery, guided
each by a private chart, of which there is no duplicate. The world is all gates,
all opportunities.

Conor Kenna
A friend is one who knows us, but
loves us anyway.


Calvin and Hobbes

That's the difference
between me and the rest of the world! Happiness isn't good enough for me!
I demand euphoria!

I got this idea!

2009-01-01T20:10:00.000-08:00

My idea is :
Everyday (or as often as i can, starting today on the new year) i will post a blog about one little thing. One easy to write down good time or positive thing that happened. Then next year i will come back and make a calendar including pictures and things and quotes and whatever. So then everyday will be a positive memory!! I think its great! It doesnt mean i'll stop blogging except for the calendar thing. I'll just label it specifically as calendar stuff. :) YES!

Yes!

2008-12-08T16:38:00.000-08:00

This is my first post. My dad has a blog and has convinced me to get a google blogger. It took me a bit to come up with the name but its a mix or New Orleans and this father daughter song reva and her dad and me and my dad have got going on. I think its nice :). I have a myspace and facebook, so this is a step towards branching out (my dad says). So i might keep this up, or maybe i wont be so interested. I'll see how it goes.

I just moved to Eureka this year from New Orleans to live with my dad. So far i love it and i think it's pretty cool to be able to live in two such different places. I dance, and that is my complete passion. I actually have dance class in about 30 min., i took dance classes at my old school, which was a art charter school. That was pretty neat. Explaining what dance means to me would take years, but it's helped me in alot of trying times. I've preformed as part of a company for two years and now i take dance at the creative arts center in Eureka. I've made alot of new friends here that i would not be as happy as i am without them. I play piano, i've been taking music fundamentals at my school for this semester and i can't believe that there is so much to learn with music theory. At the moment i just like busting out some weird tune melody thing when i have the practice room to myself. I actually have a paper due in about a week on Andrew Jackson, if he was a man of the people or not. So i've got to go. But today we played history trivia for 15 minutes at the end of class and our team "the Grubbs" won.
Bye :D